Tuesday, March 10, 2009

The day you stop running is the day you arrive....just enjoy the ride
















I don't feel as if I am fully embracing my new experience. I sit here at this cafe at the Souk Waquif and look at all of the poeple who are here...and think...am I allowing myself to accept this great gift of an adventure, to learn about a new culture.. .to learn about myself...to absorb all that I can?





They are from all walks of life, every part of the globe. Some LOOK like tourists, some LOOK like natives. Some look shell shocked and some look relaxed. I wonder what I convey to those who are looking at me.





A man walked past me a moment ago (which is what promped this musing). Obviously not from here. Western dressed... jeans, red t-shirt. He looked like he was Hawaiian from South Cali....very artsy and surfy all at the same time. And just from the way he carried himself... his vibe... you felt as if "here is someone who SAVOURS his experiences." Now, I could be totally wrong with my assumption, but that is the feeling I got... and it made me envious.










I feel like I am the consumate outsider. Always searching. Never really at peace with where or who I am.





I woke up the other morning asking myself "why do I always seem to be dissatisfied...not fully content". Always looking forward...sometimes backward... but rarely, very rarely, able to be in this moment, right now. SAVOUR it. Taste it. Commit it to memory...all of the colors, smells, emotions of this one, singular, unique moment in MY life.





Sitting here, in this place, the Old Souk, which was originally built thousands of years ago...in this modern cafe, reflecting on the past...looking to the future.... I am trying to savour THIS ONE MOMENT...and to be at peace.















Last night a friend of mine introduced me to a song... and for some reason the words have been bumping around in my head...










They shut the gates at sunset





After that you can't get out





You can see the bigger picture





Find out what it's all about










You're open to the skyline





You won't want to go back home





In a garden full of angels





You will never be alone










But oh the road is long





The stones





That you are walking on





Have gone










With the moonlight to guide you





Feel the joy of being alive





The day that you stop running





Is the day that you arrive










And the night





That you got locked in





Was the time to decide





Stop chasing shadows





Just enjoy the ride










If you close the door





To your house





Don't let anybody in





It's a room





That's full of nothing





All that underneath your skin










Face against the window





You can watch it





Fade to grey





And you'll never





Catch the fickle wind





If you choose to stay










But oh the road is long





The stones





That you are walking on





Have gone





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With the moonlight to guide you





Feel the joy of being alive





The day that you stop running





Is the day that you arrive










(Chorus)And the night





That you got locked in





Was the time to decide





Stop chasing shadows





Just enjoy the ride





Stop chasing shadows





Just enjoy the ride





Monday, March 2, 2009

Yup... this IS the middle east

CENSORSHIP SUCKS

and I believe that is all I will be able to say on that subject.......